Thank you and Sorry
The other day I released a video of a waterside house. Thank you for watching the video. I'm so happy. Actually, that picture I drew in a hospital room. It is said that I always seem to be healthy from my friends. But I have a heart disease. Heart surgery was done three times including this time. I did surgery in April this year, did not heal. So, I was hospitalized for two weeks in September, and I had surgery. I posted to steemit in the past few days, I was doing it from the hospital room. While being occasionally angered by a nurse ;)
The surgery took about 7 hours. And I drew that picture in the hospital the day before the operation. That is a “waterside house painting”.
After taking a day off in the intensive care unit after surgery, I came back to room and was asleep. I was thinking about something at the intensive care unit. I want to talk about that today.
I'm a painter who is not famous, but I have been working as an artist for more than 40 years using oil paintings and watercolors. And I have the opportunity to teach a lot of people, and my art class students are in Tokyo. Also, I'm releasing a watercolors video on YouTube. But I felt doubt about the style of this video. Someone is writing a comment on my video on YouTube. But I'm thinking about something while reading that comment. A person who likes to draw a picture is looking at my picture. And they say that they copy it and can not draw like me.
My video is giving the negative pressure of the thought that you probably can't do it? Sometimes this happens to my students as well. They draw by imitating me, but they can't do it. And they are disappointed and going away. But if I'm there, I can encourage them. However, in the Internet world, I can only encourage you by writing. In a sense, It may be difficult just to express by only words.
You've been frustrated because I said please try to draw.
If you can't draw a picture and you're worried…
If you think that you've become tired of the painting anymore…
My video is bothering you？ I would like to say I'm really sorry if it's so. In that sense, I feel doubt what I am doing, I am regret on it. From now on I'd like to change something more. To get closer to you.
I don't think I want to get to know you just by painting. Shibasaki is an artist but I'm 71-year old grandpa. I want to realize relationships that I can talk about more familiar things. Not only do I show my painting but I want to be friends with you. I might not be able to communicate well because English is not my native language, but I want to be friends with you. And I think it would be great if I could make it happen.